Knowing what i know, being who i am, seeing what i have seen; there is no way i can just let someone who i care so much about just, dissipate into oblivion found only in memory scares yet there. only accessible through rigorous digging and rummaging about in my own crawlspace of a mind. NO! You are far too important for this disgraceful treatment. True timing was off. Yes, you might have said something to make yourself feel a bit off when i am around. but a relationship goes more than just one way. i have gotten too good at just shutting people out. but that’s only when i feel i am okay with the terms. Today, Yesterday, Tomorrow, in no certain order do these thought occur but you are in them. since i have fully realized what i agreed to i can’t believe i would say okay to something like this. its quite tough, just pandering our friendship because of a drunken night… don’t worry i wont break my word; however stupid it might be. I will allow you all the space and time you need. who knows it may be tomorrow.. maybe not? but know that i am here i am waiting and i am ready to pick up where we left off. a person like me comes along every now and again. but in my world a person like you is one in a million. you are a Gem one that i had for a short period of time and one i let go of in my opinion too easily. if i ever get so lucky to come across you in the rough, it wont be so easy to slide through my grip.
Remember i have been working out ;)
